As you can see I'm back and not dead, so it's time to get back in the saddle, so to speak. I've decided to talk today about psychosis. This is prompted by a post I read on another forum. Possibly more than any other disorders with gross misconceptions about them, I am very touchy about psychotic symptoms in the media. Whereas most mental illnesses are portrayed as exaggerated stereotypes of the real thing, psychosis is just the catch-all term for crazy (particularly violent crazy) and why not? Morphologically speaking, it sounds like it should be, right?
What it really is: Psychosis is a symptom of various other mental disorders that impairs a person's ability to accurately interact with the world and respond appropriately. The most common psychoses are hallucinations and delusions.
Who can get it: Lots of people. People who have depression, bipolar, and personality disorders, for instance, can have psychosis symptoms. On the other hand, Schizophrenia is a psychotic disorder, due to the symptoms being the main component of the disorder.
Delusions are when a person has an unshakable belief in something that could be possible, but is unlikely. A person suffering from delusions may, for instance, believe that a person is in love with them and take it as far as stalking the object of their delusion and/or attacking the person's actual love interest. It could also manifest as believing a person they see regularly is stalking them, so they make habits of taking needlessly complicated routes everywhere and never taking the same route twice. A delusion could even be a belief that you have supernatural abilities (more on this later).
Hallucinations are when a person experiences things no one else does. Possible types of hallucinations include visual, auditory and even smells. These can be frightening for the person experiencing them but most often are completely harmless. They become a problem when the sufferer loses the ability to distinguish what is and isn't real. Sounds like a lot of psychological thriller plotlines...
Brief Reactive Psychosis is a temporary affliction where a person has psychoses only in times of stress. These episodes may be as short as one day and as long as a month.
Treatment: Other than taking anti-psychotic drugs like Zyprexa, it seems that many treatments mirror those for depression. These can be found in the reference link for interested parties.
I used to regularly have auditory and visual hallucinations before I was diagnosed and put on meds. Nothing major, just a black cloud on the corner of my vision or short amounts of "white noise," as I called it. Not the same as the white noise on TV, I described it as many voices speaking all at once so you can't make out any single one. The auditory ones got steadily worse, then suddenly stopped. The last one was a flat sounding voice calling out to me. It scared me because it was the first time that a voice I heard was directed at me and not one I just happened to "overhear." My parents were there and saw me frantically checking doors and windows, even the neighbor's doors. I probably freaked them out, honestly.
These hallucinations stopped for over a year. Then this past spring when I reached the middle of the semester and I was panicking because I hadn't finished a spring semester in two years and didn't think I could do it, add in problems with my apartment neighbors, and I had two days of the worst visual hallucinations I'd ever had. I saw a man holding a large kitchen knife, a figure running across the room, and then an ant crawling on me (that I knew wasn't real because I couldn't feel it on my skin). It's enough to make a person paranoid. On that third day I still couldn't trust my eyes but there were no more after that.
My friends will tell you I am pragmatic and rational to a fault. Despite this, and because of my past psychotic episodes, I can't trust in the world that everyone else sees. I believed that those auditory hallucinations were other's thoughts, as the white noise only happened in crowded places, and that the voice that called to me was another consciousness reaching out to me. A part of me still believes that, after all, who's to say that it isn't true? Even my highly rational mind can't just rule it out. Am I delusional? Probably. But I'd love to see you try it without developing some kind of warped sense of reality!
Resource: http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/psychoticdisorders.html
